My indulgence with Bhagavad Gita started when I was six years of age. Something within me stirred all the time as if wanting to say there was more to life than visible. Slowly I realized something existed in my heart.
On questioning the elders in the family, I was told it was my soul atman, the spirit. I was also sold that present earthly journey was taken by this soul atman. When I asked how, they could not explain to me anything. And started my search for God! I just wanted to see and meet God in this very life so that I could question him, ask whatever I wanted to.
While indulging in spirituality deep within, I could distinctly hear voice of soul atman coming from within my heart! When talking to elders in the family about Lord Krishna I realized that it was Lord Krishna existing in my heart as my soul atman.
If Lord Krishna existed in me all the time where was the need for me to consult Bhagavad Gita? If somehow I could reach Lord Krishna within all the time!
By demolishing my ego in totality, practicing truthfulness 100%, believing in God 100% and also believing in world of souls’ atmans I finally realized that reaching my true inner self in the heart is the ultimate goal of my life.
In the meanwhile my father taught me art of practicing shavasna. He just did it not from any spiritual point of view. This proved to be a boon. When going to bed in the night I used to lay in shavasna pose of yoga and in subconscious state indulged in pranayama, self enquiry also Neti (not this, not this) as preached and practiced by Maharshi Ramana.
My interaction with Lord Krishna within grew day by day. Externally everything was normal but internally I was in search of God.
Instead of relying on external resources, I started relying on voice of Lord Krishna within. Guided by voice of Lord Krishna within I finally completed my spiritual journey 37 years of age.
In the wee hours of third of August 1993 when God Almighty gave me Sakshat Darshan, I realized my kundalini had awakened fully absolutely unknown to me. I had finally reached end of cosmic life, becoming a pure soul atman in the bargain.
Without ever referring to Bhagavad Gita even once, I had forever realized contents of Bhagavad Gita.
On path of pure spirituality contemplation plays a vital role. In absence of contemplation nothing in scriptures including Bhagavad Gita becomes clear. Contemplation is following path of jnana yoga (absolute wisdom), only then we can cut across darkness of ignorance within.
On path of pure spirituality we must never indulge in the facts whether Lord Krishna existed or not, whether battle of Mahabharata occurred in real life but our concentration should be reaching Lord Krishna within by demolishing our ego in totality.
At any given moment of life only one could prevail, the voice of Lord Krishna coming from within or the dominance of ego. If we demolished our ego in totality, we could all the time hear dictates of Lord Krishna coming from within our heart.
Do not know how, I succeeded demolishing my ego in totality six years of age. When I was 6 1/2 I distinctly remember clearly hearing voice of Lord Krishna from within. It is this voice coming from within, the voice of Lord Krishna or let us say, of soul atman within that I successfully completed my spiritual journey.
Instead of indulging in Bhagavad Gita literally I recommend mastering art of contemplation (chintan). Then it would not only become easier to indulge in spirituality but also complete our spiritual journey, becoming a pure soul atman in the end.