Even after gaining enlightenment, even after reaching state of self realization one never gets to know what one has achieved. The symptoms are nowhere expressed in any literature. Every single journey by individual human being towards God would be different.
In the wee hours of third of August 1993 when I had a direct Sakshatkar with God Almighty on one-to-one basis I did not know what happened. It was only after about two hours when God Almighty gave me a lengthy dictation I came to know that I was a soul atman on its cosmic journey and indulging in spirituality I had finally was reached state of self realization, becoming a pure soul atman in the bargain.
Furthermore my kundalini had also awakened fully absolutely unknown to me.
In my journey of spirituality I was never after self realization or god realization. I just wanted to see and meet God in this very life. And for this journey of mine God Almighty blessed me with self realization.
All my life from six years of age I worked for welfare of entire mankind. Never for a single moment did I ever think about my individual self. My goal of life always was reaching God, nothing else.
In present times I find people wanting to realize self without indulging in welfare of entire mankind. How can such people successful indulge in spirituality to reach God in their lifetime?
From six years of age I practiced 100% truthfulness prime reason why I could decipher, clearly hear dictates of Lord Krishna coming from within my heart.
Furthermore in Bhagavad Gita Lord Krishna says we must never go after fruits of karma performed. In the circumstances, we could never become judgemental checking our progress at each and every step of spiritual life.
The state of enlightenment, self realization is always bestowed by God as a byproduct of our services rendered to entire mankind.